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So yesterday was a total failure. The day didn’t start off too well mainly because I didn’t get enough sleep. A little back-story

On Wednesday Seth told me there was a Yorkie puppy that needed a home, so we talked to our landlords, and convinced them to let us have it, with a small deposit. I was SOOO EXCITED. I have wanted a dog for a very long time epically a Yorkie, but since our old landlords where totally against it we didn’t try. We have new landlords now, but when we first met them they told us they too didn’t want pets. Our house is kind of small so we understood. Well this Yorkie came up since my husband works at a Senior Living facility, and there is a gentlemen that is unable to take care of his 6 month old Yorkshire terrier. He has some memory problems and physical problems. So he is not able to properly exercise it mentally or physically. At first I guess it wasn’t so bad, but sadly he is getting worse and now the puppy has entered the stage where he is rebelling so the other residents are starting to complain about the barking. It also turned a bit dangerous since the puppy has so much energy and was running around he almost caused his owner to fall – which would have been very bad.

Since the puppy has had little or no training, none of the gentlemen’s family members are willing to take on the terrible terrier. Everything bad that a puppy can do – he does, and he is not potty trained. But since my hobby is dog training, my husband said we would. We haven’t gotten the dog yet, mainly because we want the gentlemen to have enough time to say goodbye and make sure that it is his decision (although his family has already decided that the dog has got to go). So I have been very excited, so excited that I didn’t sleep on Wednesday. Well not only do I have weight problems, but I also have an anxiety disorder. Lack of Sleep + Lots of excitement = having a panic attack, in the middle of work.

I don’t take any medication for it, because normally I am able to calm myself down. I was able to do that however I didn’t calm completely, so I felt like I was going to have a heart attack all day. Anything would set me off. It was horrible. Then we had a bunch of people near my desk so I felt trapped and really had to fight off the attack. Then I started breaking out in hives, so everyone started asking me if I was ok. All that attention just made things worse. Needless to say by the time work was over I very high strung. I decided to cheat a little on my diet to try to make myself feel better. 2 double cheeseburgers and a large French fry later I am 1500 Calories OVER my DAILY limit. 1500. That is almost ½ a pound. I didn’t realize that they had so many calories. But it makes sense, since that’s why most people gain so much weight, eating all the fast food.

To make matters worse, of course the horrid food didn’t help my anxiety at all. So I went home dealt with the anxiety for a few hours, until I finally calmed.

Now today I’m not dealing with anxiety, but I am dealing with a ton of guilt for how I ate yesterday. And today is Halloween – the day of Temptation. There is a ton of candy around the office, and we are having a cake contest – so that are lots of cakes and cupcakes available. Then we are going over to some friends’ house tonight to watch scary movies and hand out candy. Today is going to be a challenge. I really hope I can stay on track not only today – but this weekend as well, since weekends are usually the hardest for me.

Ahh well, Happy Halloween

One of the hardest things I am trying to do is get rid of unnecessary fats. Like butter, mayonnaise, bacon ect. Foods that really have no nutritional value and are just for flavor. Mayo was pretty easy – I bought some light mayo and it tasted so disgusting that I decided no mayo was better than light and just threw it away. Bacon is easy too, my husband didn’t like it much anyway so we just decided not to buy it. But Butter. O Butter. It’s so horrible and so yummy. Its hard too because anytime I eat any carbs or starches I put on gobs and gobs of butter. And I’m talking a lot of butter, I would cook with it, then add more. Its horrible. I think I just need to not buy it for a while, because I think it’s a food I can’t control myself around. And if it’s out of site it’s out of mind. Hopefully.

Rethought my meal plan a little bit. I am replacing dinner with a meal replacement shake, and eating a normal breakfast. The reason is because I always overeat at dinner time. I cant seem to help myself at night. In fact last night was a real struggle. I cooked myself dinner, a little croissant sandwich. It was really good and within my calorie limit. But after words, even after drinking a glass of water all I wanted was to eat another croissant. I know it was just carb cravings and not real hunger, but it was so hard. There were a couple times I went to the kitchen with the intention of eating it. I was surprised how much I wanted it. After about an hour, since I was still hungry I decided to have a few crackers. I only had 4 – about 60 calories. After I ate those my craving totally went away. I’m glad I had enough self control to not eat the big croissant, but I am a little worried about the cravings in general. I almost had NO Control. It was tough.

So today is the first day of the normal breakfast and shake for lunch/dinner. I know its going to be rough for the next few days. But I can do it. I just have to make sure I keep reminding myself of my goals.

So my title is a bit weird, happy about losing my wedding ring? No I am not having marital problems. I usually never take my wedding ring off, and when I do it usually reminds me of how fat I have gotten. It’s tight and hard to get off. Well I didn’t notice it but it’s been feeling looser, and last night it came off in my sleep. Spent 30 mins looking for the silly thing. At first I was a little irritated – then I realized, if it’s loose – that means I’m losing some weight. YAY!!!!! So that made my morning.

This weekend will be a trial. Usually the weekend is when I break all the rules because we go out. This weekend its Movie night at his brothers house Friday, then party night at his friends house Saturday, and recovering on Sunday.  I’m not terribly worried though. My husband’s brother usually cooks pretty good-for-you food and our friends are pretty health conscious. In fact, they were happy when we announced that we will be stopping the fast food – they only went because we did. So the only negative influence this weekend will be me. Can I resist the lure of fast food breakfast? Or Starbucks? Only time will tell. But I am confident that I will be able to be strong and stick to my plan.

Weeks Wrap Up –

So it’s the end of the first week. I had a few minor setbacks, however on the whole I think the week went well. In fact I am already noticing some changes. Since I started taking vitamins, meal replacements and getting plenty of water – I am more awake and have more energy. I also don’t have as many cravings for random foods. I can actually watch a food commercial without immediately wanting to go after the food. This week has given me hope. Usually the first week of a diet for me is torture. Tons of withdrawals (from carbs) and cravings. But since it’s going so well – I really think that this diet is going to work for me. And the fact that my husband is joining me has also got me motivated. And to top it all off – it’s a healthy diet. I am getting all the nutrition I should be getting, and all the water I need.

This week was wonderful – and now I am 1 week closer to my goal of getting fit and feeling great. YAY!

So yesterday I had a bit of a backslide. A friend gave me these diet pills that she didn’t like, So I decided to try them. They really get you going. I tried them on Saturday before the diet, so I had a stomach full of solid food, and it was fine. Yesterday, I decided to try them again, however this time I was on the meal replacements. Didn’t go so well. I felt so sick, I needed solid food and the closest place to me is the Chinese restaurant next-door. I only got some chicken, but still – I was a little discouraged. I think I was only 100-200 calories over my limit, but Its only day 2 and I already started slipping. Top that off with a lack of sleep. Because the diet pills have so much energy stuff in them I couldn’t get to sleep at my normal time, around 9pm. I wasn’t at all tired, so I stayed up until 11pm, and got up for work at 6am like normal. So I know today will be a little rough due to the lack of sleep.

Today I decided Not to take the full dose of diet pills, and just take 1 for a extra bit of energy. At the moment I feel fine, but a bit tired. I bought some carrots and bananas to keep in the fridge at work, That way if I need something solid, instead of running to the Chinese place, I can just grab a healthy snack. The hardest thing for me to do today will be to resist the lure of coffee. We have free coffee in the office, and I know coffee isn’t too bad for me, but the gobs of creamer I put in it is. So I will have to have a lot of self control today to stop myself from indulging.

I did make a good decision though, I decided that I have no self control. A little ways away is a Grocery Store with a Starbucks inside. So at lunch I usually stop buy and grab a coffee, since Starbucks is so much yummier than what we have at work. To make it healthy – I use Soy instead of a normal creamer. BUT since it’s a grocery store, with lots of carbs readily available, I usually also grab a bagel or a cinnamon roll along with my coffee. No matter how many times I tell myself to get Coffee only, I always give in to the cravings for carbs. To prevent this, I gave my Bank Cards to my husband. So with no cash and no cards – No Carbs.  I normally don’t need my card for anything other than coffee anyway, so its not a huge deal. And now I don’t have to rely on my shaky self control.

I feel good today other than being a little tired. Its still hard getting used to the new Diet, but I’m going to do my best. Once I am used to the diet, I get to start going to the Gym! So that will be fun. I just cant wait to be fit, have energy and be happy about the way I look.

Ok so Day 1 went…ok. We have a lot of not-so-good food left in our house so we are trying to get rid of it, but I think I did pretty well. Stuck with the meal replacements for Breakfast and Lunch, then had chicken breast, carrots and shells & cheese (yeah yeah, but I couldn’t just throw it away and it was the only box) so I think I was well within my calorie range. 

The only issue was before Dinner I felt, weird. The meal replacements made me full, but I could feel that there was nothing in my stomach, so it made me feel weird. Then I started to crave food, not because I was hungry but because I wanted something in my stomach. So I decided to get some carrots and bananas, that way I can get something solid, but not destroy my diet.  

So here’s the plan: 

Phase 1 – 2 Weeks – Goal: Get used to Meal ReplacementsCalories: 1200-1300 CaloriesExercise: ½ Hour Walk, everydayEstimated Loss: 2.4 lbs 

Phase 2 – 3 Weeks – Goal: Go to the GymCalories: 1200-1300 CaloriesHome: ½ Hour Walk, everydayGym: 2 Days a week, weight class and 60 mins cardio (easy pace)Estimated Loss: 6.3 lbs 

Phase 3 – 3 Weeks – Goal: Get a BikeCalories: 1200-1300 CaloriesHome: Bike ½ Hour – Easy PaceGym: 2 Days a week, weight class and 60 mins cardio (easy pace)Estimated Loss: 7 lbs 

Phase 4 – 4 Weeks – Goal: Increase PaceCalories: 1200 – 1300 CaloriesHome: Bike 45 Mins – Moderate PaceGym: 2 Days a week, weight class and 60 mins cardio (mod pace)Work: ½ Hour Walk – 5 days a weekEstimated Loss: 9.3 Lbs 

Phase 5 – 5 Weeks – Goal: Increase CaloriesCalories: 1300-1400Home: Bike 60 Mins – moderate paceGym: 2 Days a week, weight class and 60 mins cardio (mod Pace)Work: ½ Hour Walk – 5 days a weekEstimated Loss:  11.3 lbs 

Phase 6 – 4 Weeks – Goal: Increase Exercise & paceCalories: 1300-1400 CaloriesHome: Bike 45 Mins – High PaceGym: 3 Days a week, weight class, spin class, 45 mins cardio (high pace)Work: ½ hour brisk walk – 5 days a weekEstimated Loss: 9.3 lbs 

Phase 7 – 9 Weeks – Goal: Increase Calories & exerciseCalories: 1400-1500 CaloriesHome: Bike 60 Mins – High PaceGym: 3 Days a week, weight class, spin class, 60 mins cardio (high pace)Work: ½ hour brisk walk – 5 days a weekEstimated Loss: 20 lbs 

Phase 8 – 4 Weeks – Goal: Increase CaloriesCalories: 1500-1700 CaloriesHome: Bike 60 Mins – High PaceGym: 3 Days a week, weight class, spin class, 60 mins cardio (high pace)Work: ½ hour brisk walk – 5 days a weekEstimated Loss: 6.3 lbs 

Total Time: 34 WeeksTotal Estimated Loss: 71.9 lbsGoal Weight: 135 

If I lost the whole estimated loss I would be at 128, however I know that since this is estimated, I am giving myself a little bit of room with a goal of 135. 

Maintain: Calories: 1700-2000 CaloriesHome: Bike 60 Mins – High PaceGym: 3 Days a week, Choose 1: Weight Class, Spin Class, 60 Mins Cardio (high pace) 

So I’ve got the plan, I’ve got the tools, and with Buddyslim and my Husband I’ve got the external motivation – The rest is up to me. I am the only one that can stand in my way. Time to get fit!! 

**Ding Ding Ding*** 

Here we are again; it’s been a while since I’ve blogged, mainly because I fell of the “get fit” map. Everything started to go down hill, and I let it.  

First off, I was going to the gym 4 days a week, then my Co-worker who gave me a ride (I don’t drive) got sick and couldn’t go. But hey I figured I would just jog outside more (I was going jogging 4-5 days a week). Then the Fires Hit
Northern Ca. and it was so smoky outside jogging was out of the question. So that left me with…nothing. Now these are legitimate excuses, however they are still just excuses. Stopping working out was no reason to start eating unhealthy again, and yet that’s just what I did. 

So here we are a month later, not only did I gain back the 12 Inches I lost, but I’ve also gained 5 lbs!!! I’m at a horrible 200 lbs. 

However this time I think I have a better recipe for Success. Last go around it was just me trying to loss the weight; my husband had no interest in dieting or going to the gym. So While I would eat like a rabbit go to the gym and jog. He would sit at home, eat what he wanted and watch TV/Play video games. Needless to say he has gained a bit of weight as well. I don’t know what clicked with him, but last weekend, all of a sudden he wants to go to the gym, and go on a diet. Actually he didn’t say diet; he just wants us to focus on eating better, and NO FAST FOOD. I couldn’t believe it. It was wonderful. 

So, today is day one of OUR Plan. And I think since I’m not doing this alone, it will work much better. We are going on a meal replacement diet for 5 months to start; breakfast and lunch are a Lean Meal Replacement, with a Healthy low fat, low carb dinner. We are also going to be going to the gym 2 days a week to start, and then upping it to 3. For the days we don’t go to the gym, we are purchasing an Upright Bike to do some cardio at home, and a few medicine balls for weight training.  

The best thing about this I think is that my husband is so excited and Gun-ho about this that it makes me excited and motivated as well. It helps that some friends we spend a lot of time with are also very health conscious, so we have people around us who love exercising and who eat right.  

So my goal? 65 lbs. But not only do I want to lose the weight, I want to feel good about myself. And Already I’m starting to. Its only day 1 but I’m very happy with the healthy changes we decided to make. 

Time to Knock the Fat out of the ring for good! Thanks for reading Buddies!!