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So yesterday was a total failure. The day didn’t start off too well mainly because I didn’t get enough sleep. A little back-story

On Wednesday Seth told me there was a Yorkie puppy that needed a home, so we talked to our landlords, and convinced them to let us have it, with a small deposit. I was SOOO EXCITED. I have wanted a dog for a very long time epically a Yorkie, but since our old landlords where totally against it we didn’t try. We have new landlords now, but when we first met them they told us they too didn’t want pets. Our house is kind of small so we understood. Well this Yorkie came up since my husband works at a Senior Living facility, and there is a gentlemen that is unable to take care of his 6 month old Yorkshire terrier. He has some memory problems and physical problems. So he is not able to properly exercise it mentally or physically. At first I guess it wasn’t so bad, but sadly he is getting worse and now the puppy has entered the stage where he is rebelling so the other residents are starting to complain about the barking. It also turned a bit dangerous since the puppy has so much energy and was running around he almost caused his owner to fall – which would have been very bad.

Since the puppy has had little or no training, none of the gentlemen’s family members are willing to take on the terrible terrier. Everything bad that a puppy can do – he does, and he is not potty trained. But since my hobby is dog training, my husband said we would. We haven’t gotten the dog yet, mainly because we want the gentlemen to have enough time to say goodbye and make sure that it is his decision (although his family has already decided that the dog has got to go). So I have been very excited, so excited that I didn’t sleep on Wednesday. Well not only do I have weight problems, but I also have an anxiety disorder. Lack of Sleep + Lots of excitement = having a panic attack, in the middle of work.

I don’t take any medication for it, because normally I am able to calm myself down. I was able to do that however I didn’t calm completely, so I felt like I was going to have a heart attack all day. Anything would set me off. It was horrible. Then we had a bunch of people near my desk so I felt trapped and really had to fight off the attack. Then I started breaking out in hives, so everyone started asking me if I was ok. All that attention just made things worse. Needless to say by the time work was over I very high strung. I decided to cheat a little on my diet to try to make myself feel better. 2 double cheeseburgers and a large French fry later I am 1500 Calories OVER my DAILY limit. 1500. That is almost ½ a pound. I didn’t realize that they had so many calories. But it makes sense, since that’s why most people gain so much weight, eating all the fast food.

To make matters worse, of course the horrid food didn’t help my anxiety at all. So I went home dealt with the anxiety for a few hours, until I finally calmed.

Now today I’m not dealing with anxiety, but I am dealing with a ton of guilt for how I ate yesterday. And today is Halloween – the day of Temptation. There is a ton of candy around the office, and we are having a cake contest – so that are lots of cakes and cupcakes available. Then we are going over to some friends’ house tonight to watch scary movies and hand out candy. Today is going to be a challenge. I really hope I can stay on track not only today – but this weekend as well, since weekends are usually the hardest for me.

Ahh well, Happy Halloween